What to do? That's me.

Bout two months that I didn't update my blogspot.
What should I post at here?
Tell bout my life? my thinking? or the suffer which I'm facing?
Well... Two months passed.
I'm still working in ING
I... keep working ...
Non-stop...
What it for?
I don't know?
Someone said that I'm going insance of money or working...
I thought is caused by money...
What I need is or was money...
That's we always said no money = no life.
I desire to study...study...
But I can't..
I didn't have enough money to study,
To do what I want to do.
I gonna work more job to get that i want.
Why they can? Why can't I?
Why always I thinking much? For?
Why don't I just do it?

Inferior? Yes.
Why inferior?!
Why I can't change it?
Is it my demand to myself was too....
Is it I've make a great decision to myself?
Who else can tell me what I gonna to do on next?
Anyone will favour with my decision that I made?
Everyone will ask... where you're studying? which courses?
My answer will always be nope. I'm working.
That respond which always I got is WHY!
Give it a rest, please.
I'm tired.
Definitely tiring am I.
I always thinking why I different compare with my frenz or acquaintance.
Its authentic.
Why I'm always look vulnerable to people?
I'm always miserable.
I thought too much literally.
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Anyway.
Its will work out for me.
Lucky always with me.
I trust myself.
Nothing is difficult for me.
I can do it.
I will prove it.