Overwhelmed

Sigh.
I'm stressed and frazzled.
What's wrong? I'm trying my best don't let it get to me.
I was looking at my work, I couldn't do anything on it.
I have no idea to complete it.
Holiday makes me lose myself. I hate you.
You always make me down down and down.
You make me memorise that something I don't like to remember or think.
I don't want holidays or any vacations.
I hope I could have an accident that wil make me lose all the awfull memories that I have had.
I hate this frustrated feeling. I hate!
I can't get rid of you.
You always interrupt me.
I did my best but I couldn't get what I want.
Why the people wasn't serious to do it, but they still can get what they want. Why can't I?
A depressed day that I'm having again.
Shall I think positive in everythings?
The more I hoped the more I disappointed.
Why seem I always got negative things ?
Stupid!