Acceptance

I'm really a stupid one that I know you don't care, but I still care.

I care you through some ways that I never would do.

I care more than you thought.

Why can't I just let it go totally?

Why am I that stupid that waiting for you?

Why don't I just wake up and accept everything?

I should have just kept it in my mind that if you're mine, you'll be back,

But I escape; I'm afraid to accept the truth.

Nothing is for me to scare of but this does.

Never would I avoid fear from anything except this.

Nothing else makes myself lost, but this did.

Nothing else makes me unhappy, but this does too.

Can someone helps me to take you out of my mind?

There's no one, but time.

Time flies, everything goes well for you.

Only accept, your life only can goes on happily.

Be back the happiest April whom everyone knows =)

You never know

You never know,

I miss still.

You never know,
I care still.

You never know,

Finally I cried out. In love relationship, I, April always is a failure. Never good at this. Never ever improve. Always be fool in this.

You never know,

I know that we can't be together. But I will keep my promise on. Always. Until the day you get what you want.

You never know,
You are the one who gave me up, not me.

You never know,
I felt guilty that if i really hurt you but it wasn't meant by me.

You never know,
This is what we called fate that even I didn't say anything, you took it as that way. This, you gave it up, NoT M3. This will be your lost but it's fate. I'll accept it.

And, You never know,

I trust myself that I definitely can stand back and get myself back who is happy always to everyone =)

Elissa, you're right that I am definitely hurt now. But this is just temporary feeling that comes across my life. It's a challenge.

You never know,
That is something can't be changed but I'll try. Try everything with my true heart.

You never know,
I'll do what I promise, be here for you always as a good friend whenever you need me.

You never know,

If there's really a truly love from you to me, I believe that it will be back to me no matter how hard I push it away.

Campus Life

I've just started my campus life in Taylor's lakeside University, doing Diploma in Communication. Feeling a bit frustrated of the schedule, not able to get slightly more time to get rest or relaxed. It starts too early for the morning classes, and more, what makes me feel annoying is the TRAFFIC !!!!!Get up in the very morning and drive to school for an hour!What's more, it takes a lot far journey to home, like going to Ipoh. This is really insance! What I'm concerned about doing the right course. I hope I did. Going around is always far better than staying at stupid compter in office for me. Anyway, I trust myself. I will do everything well and enjoy the campus life. I'm glad that everyone speaks English there which I like so much and the facilities are really terrific. I guess I did a good decision to study at Taylor's even though I was alone to there. Well, definitely I will be rushing all the time for classes or studies, no longer spending more time fooling around with "sisters". Unexpectedly, I will make a new blog for my studies, it sounds a bit nonsense but i still have to. Hmm, and.. the thing I like for this course is I will be facing a lot of public speakings or so which I'm afraid, it's challenging.But, I lost my favourite subject- Maths.Sigh.I'm thinking it over if I should do this subject. Overall, I will try my best to do well and enjoy it !

I definitely love it

I now kind of found myself back, but not...
Anyway.
I have been quite long time didn't write anything on my blogspot, but I do not know what should write about.
Sigh, New year is coming very soon ,my birthday as well xD
>< Oh no. I'm getting older, but fortuantely I look younger that I really am.
I have a lot of things to get it done but it seems don't have that much time for me to complete them. Somemore, am going to Uni ,going to be a far busier than now. It probably makes me more tired than now. But, I'm pleased that I could do whatever I want to even if it makes me exhausted. Hmm, I think I'm probably crazy with English >< all the English paper is stuck on my wall. That's the only thing people would be suprising of that once enter my messy room. And, recently I found that I have become slightly happier that I was, felt like staying at home ,looking at my English papers better.Due to my heart of loving English that people usually don't have, I keep studying English as much as I could especially in pronunciation and it makes me become more confident and happier if I am depressed or frustrated with something else. So far, there's only one thing makes me think or worry all the time is my English proficency, my pronunciation, the ascent that I want- luckily I get a New Zealand English teacher, Mary. She's really amazing. I absolutely love her ascent. I'm trying hard to do as she does. In Malaysia, I still can't find someone who is very good or incredicble at English, so that I could learn from him/her. I'm waiting !!! I wish he or she would show up soon.