The struggles I'm facing - Day 11

爱你就是在折磨我自己，
我不停的努力挣扎着，
希望可以走出来。
想念是痛苦的，
不停地想念却什么都做不到，
让人无法专心的做东西，
满脑子都是对方，
不停让你回想过去开心的日子。

Someone told me that he not the one who really love me,
he is the person who gave me experienced to me ,
and grow me up only.
He told me that i am lucky,
at least i didn't cry again,
no more crying for him.
He keep courage me that be optimistic,
pessimistic wouldn't work out,
it just brought me to wrong path,
be tough.
Everything was over,
it is history,
just a memory,
or an experience for me.
I have to move on for my future.
Its time to end for a better life,
there is someone else who is really fit me.
If i am busy enough,
he won't be on your mind,
just let myself stay in comfort,
keep doin' whats make me feel good.
I knew that something is can't explain and no for his leaving,
eventhough i love him,
its also useless.
All i need is time,
Its time that i learned to face up to this on my own.